I have Bipolar 1 disorder (mania, psychosis and my mental health struggles of 2023)
Definitely the scariest video I’ve ever pressed upload on.
A side effect of medication sent me on a mental health rollercoaster throughout 2023 and beyond. In an effort to raise awareness and push against mental health stigma, I’d like to share my story.
I experienced my absolute highest highs and lowest lows during this time and I think you’ll find it fascinating. It was a wild year to put it lightly, open it your up if you’re in for an adventure and are ready for some heavy topics.
I asked a few therapists what would be the best link to include here and this is what we came up with.
If you’re struggling,
Help is available.
One resource is the
988 Suicide and Crisis Lifeline
You can text/call this number or visit their website
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i dont have bipolar disorder at all but i have severe depression. ive never held a good, real relationship. no one to turn to when youre fighting your own demons by yourself. so when i heard about his wife i thought 'must be nice' cause with each day i believe less and less that love it real. but when i heard that, instantly gave me hope.
youre a brave man for talking about this rob, thanks.
Totally understand. It's brutal. Glad I found your channel back in 2014ish. Good times.
I was expecting with so much happiness and excitement the FOO
‘s 2023. I was having a terrible year that is not the case to bring this up. However, when I saw the complete video, I felt something different in Rob’s behavior before he started to record Usually. I definitely felt something was going on. Like he wasn’t enjoying this like always.
After almost one year, watching this video understating the full situation, understanding that, indeed, he wasn’t feeling ok. I just can’t think of other thought or wish that Rob gets well. He is an amazing musician, he is charismatic, he is so creative and talented that having that condition it’s like a pain in the ass, it felts like a cold shower directly of reality.
However, I am extremely grateful that first of all, he had someone so supportive and lovely like her wife (I got really excited when I saw her wedding); Tamara is amazing and made me drop some tears when I saw them hugging and loving, like dude, in the end that’s what fucking matters.
Second, you have an amazing crew, very supportive and helpful. Your friend Andrew is like one of the best persons you could have teamed up.
Sadly, our body doesn’t lie. At the end everything shows up. It’s great that you had all this support and love.
You are an amazing dude, you are one of the reasons I love music and enjoy it from different perspectives and angles. I hope this year FOO could fill up all your expectations and wishes, but i really hope you get well, I hope you can get over this.
Even if there are not videos on youtube, I “will be on touch” if there’s something I could do.
Ps: Jake, I almost forgot you, thanks for helping Rob and keep editing his videos. All of you guys, are amazing.
Ps 2: I can speak through all that we are having hard times recently, let’s support each other. We’ll get out through this.
Love to this community.
Hugs 🙂
This is the video I needed. I can't stand all of the fucked up feelings and thoughts that seem to come from nowhere and the logical part of my mind is always searching for that reasoning that is just not there so then the delusion for me becomes I don't have this I have something else I've had to continuously remind myself convince myself that I do in fact have bipolar one with psychotic features thank you for being so brave and candidate and sharing your thought process that part really helps when you're feeling disconnected like I do right now
Been watching your videos for a very long time and love the stuff you put out. It's inspirational and educational and lots of fun. Just want to say that I think you're amazing and so brave for making a video about your struggle. Good to hear you're doing better!
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You're a true inspiration man 🤘🏼🔥
You have always been such an inspiration to me, Rob. I'll never be able to thank you enough for what I've gained from witnessing your journey ♥️ I'm so happy that you're okay
I have Bipolar 1 as well. Some points of advise: 1. Get your sleep, especially when you are FEELING WELL. It's your frontline in your battle against Bipolar! 2. Emotions are like storms. Don't fear, have patience, and take shelter. All storms PASS 3. Our lows are a great hardship, but this is when we sow our seeds. You will often find your harvest is JOY so labor against that storm with great expectation. 4. Have faith. This is not reserved for the religious, but for those who hope for what is not yet seen. Be encouraged in the knowledge that you are not subject to that illness. Because of your healthy response to the weight you are lifting, you are being made stronger, and believe me when I say that your joy will INCREASE as a result. 5. Finally… it is my experience with meds that sometimes less is more. Be mindful not to respond to relapses by adding more medication. God bless you for sharing your struggle. I wept good tears.
Something similar happened to me in 2010. It occurs to many people with a creative mindset. The most prominent cause is actually sleep deprivation, amplified by unchecked outbursts of productivity. Rollerblading proved to be a very effective therapy when I was going through my recovery.
Your lucky to be alive man
I recommend the movie – a beautiful mind to anyone you will like it mate
Its absolutely crazy that we live in a society that tells a wife to leave their partner at the most horrific lowest point of their life 🧬
Thanks for this vid man- really hit at 1st of october when you said "i shoild feel amazing were in an airbnb in london yet you dont"
Dude, you are amazing. Thank you so much for this video. It's an importent video, and you are very strong & brave for making it.
We always suspected you were a head case. Thanks for confirming it.
getting labeled will only make you worse. you start believing it more than you already were messed up in the first place
Woah, I’ve been watching Rob for a while, never knew we shared a diagnosis. That’s crazy, I released an album about my struggles with mania earlier this year.
Full Blown Mania, by Jacob Olson, go check it out!
Damn man, thanks for sharing, fr ❤
Tamara sounds like a name of a strong Slavic women who’ll beat the shit out of the husbands mental illness 😅
I enlisted in the Navy in 2012 at 17 years old. While in boot camp, my leadership team asked my to speak with the psychiatrist. They ended up processing an entry level separation for exhibiting cluster b symptoms. Im still not sure what they think I might've had but I was a lot happier when I thought nothing was wrong.
Thank you so much for making this video. Been watching you for nearly a decade. I had my first psychotic episode in 2022, went a bit manic when I came off of my medication abruptly and thought I was bipolar (honestly, part of me wanted to be to validate my struggles) watching this I don’t think I am, and I definitely don’t want to. I’ve been low but not ending my life low. I’ve been officially off of my medication for 5 days so time will tell how things go, I’m feeling so great about it though. Big love rob you are amazing ❤️
I've been watching your videos throughout the years, and I haven't watched every single one of your videos, but I sure am glad that you're on the oven up! As someone who suffers with a couple of mental disorders myself, it makes me feel good that trying to stigmatize it, but you're actually trying to do the opposite!
I was diagnosed with type 2 bipolar 10 years ago. It's not nearly as intense as your Type 1. I have had to disclose this to my bosses and closest work mates. Like "if you notice me acting increasingly productive and then just weird and after that I need to check my self out for a sick leave for a couple of days, that's why."
Good side is, that when I was younger I learned many cool talents relatively fast because when I'm hypomaniac, I easily get fixated on some new thing and can't let it go.
What was this medication that caused your euphoria problems?
Poisened with acid, lots of it, 7 years of on and off psychosis, better now…
Just don't beat yourself up if it happens again. Big thanks.
Yeah this is great man. Thank you so so so much!
You're an amazing soul
I need to remember that whenever I feel like this, my brain chemistry is off.
It really helps to think about it that way. Life is not totally shit always, it's just that your brain chemistry is off, impairing your view on life.
I need therapy. But also I've had therapy so many times before and I've usually ended therapy with the answer "we don't know what's wrong with you but when you feel bad again come back" and I just want to fix the brain chemistry…
I have diagnosed epilepsy and ADHD and probably something in the field of depression/anxiety/PBD but also I am allergic for a lot of antidepressants, ADHD meds and other types of meds, and I feel lost a bit.
Atm I'm having a mental health gap year, and it's gonna be intense I think. Anyways, this is not about me this is about Rob, and he's extremely strong for sharing this and I'm grateful he did because it has helped me a little step of the way to feeling better 🙂
Thx for this video, Ive been having problems with bipolar 2 disorder and hearing this from you made me feel like i wasnt alone. Ty a lot m8. We all love you
There’s nothing odd about this. Creative people operate on different vibrations, than the most. It’s a super power. 👍🏻🤘🏻👍🏻
I have bipolar 2 ptsd anxiety mild mania and I play guitar to cope